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it’s been a while (some more) August 1, 2011

I apologize. I really should be writing more, but I just had this long mindblock. I couldn’t figure out anything to say past 140 chars (find my twitter account, I’m really amusing or I think I am). I literally stopped doing all the things that I had once thought were really fun.

Heck, today is the first day in a long time that I’ve spent more than half an hour in front of a computer. I used to spend all day staring at the computer. My home life sucked and I was deep in a state of denial about it. Now things are okay, but I’m still sorta stuck in a rut. I want to stay home and just hide in my own little world.

I think I’ve come to a couple of conclusions about this. I’m constantly in a state of sick or in pain and it translates into some sort of deep depression. I’m not saying I’m a sissy, but rather that I need to improve this situation.

I read the one book that the pain specialists at UW told me to read. It’s called the pain survival guide. Matter of fact, I’ve been doing lots of reading as of late from my phone. I just have this thing about returning to reading after a long vacation from it. I need to learn. Back to the book though. It helped me to understand where my marriage really fell apart. It helped me to understand this depression funk I’m in. It helped me to realize that in order for something to be done, I had to get off my butt and make it happen. So I am or I’m at least trying to, following suggestions from the book, of course.

I hope that someday I can return to my political writing. I know I miss it but truthfully, I am almost ashamed of where our country is going. I don’t know if I can honestly write positively all the time. I don’t want to depress people around me.

Anyways, hopefully I can get back into the swing of things. I’ve really missed my regular readers and the opportunity to write and share experiences with others. I miss Port Orchard as well. *sniffle*